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January 11, 2017
I found myself alone recently. It was the Monday after New Year’s, Aaron was working and most everyone else was having family time or running errands so I decided to go get coffee at a local coffee shop. I sat down with headphones and listened to music with my chair facing outside as I watched […]
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January 1, 2017
Almost everyday someone tells me how Eliza has touched there lives. That makes me happy. Just today the sweetest women that I really don’t know very well but see often at spin class told me that she loved watching Eliza’s “I love you” video that I posted a few weeks ago. We ended up chatting […]
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December 25, 2016
I’m sure that every mom or dad has experienced that moment where they can’t find their child. Whether it’s in an aisle at the grocery store or that moment at the playground when you look away for a split second and that little pink or blue jacket that you have been following with your eyes […]
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December 9, 2016
I’ve always thought sadness and grief were the same thing. That grief was just a more descriptive word for sadness. I know now that it’s not the same. It’s not the same at all. Sadness can be cured with a distraction, a funny movie or a bowl of ice cream. Grief cannot. Grief stays. You […]
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November 24, 2016
Its been 14 days since I’ve kissed Eliza’s sweet face. I debated on whether or not to go in her room that morning, it was early and I was leaving for the airport, I would only be gone a few days. I stood at the door for a second and then went in. I kissed […]
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November 4, 2016
I love social media, I really do. Facebook, Instagram, Snap Chat, I’m a huge fan. I like to see all the perfect weddings and births, people completing marathons, perfect birthday parties and perfect holidays. I post a lot of pictures of Eliza too, mostly of her smiling and happy and every once in a while I’ll post a […]
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October 18, 2016
Of all the days of the week Wednesday is my least favorite day. There isn’t anything really special about Wednesday. Everyone always talks about Monday being the worst day of the week but at least you know what you’re getting on Monday. Wednesday is right in the middle, the previous weekend is a distant memory and the coming weekend isn’t close enough. I […]
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October 7, 2016
Birthdays are hard, its strange to say that because I LOVE birthdays {those who know me know how true this is}. I love my birthday, Eliza’s birthday, my family and friends birthdays, basically I love celebrating birthdays. When I was pregnant with Eliza, like every mama, I had 1000 plans for her and I often thought about […]
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September 26, 2016
Every time we return from a long hospital stay it takes a good week to get back into our normal routine. For Eliza that means helping her understand that she doesn’t have to wake up every hour on the hour during the night and that she can’t lay on the couch all day and watch Frozen […]
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September 22, 2016
Sleeping in hospitals is not comfortable, everyone knows that and spending more then a few nights is pretty miserable. I bring blankets, essential oil diffusers, pillows, all the comforts of home but lets be honest. On top of everything, you need to be able to make decisions, talk to doctors and nurses, ask questions, and be smart, […]