November, I’ve been dreading you. I’ve watched the calendar all year, I’ve counted the days but their is no way to get around it… you’re here.
November will never again be the month of Election Day or Veterans Day, my Dad’s birthday, Thanksgiving or Black Friday. It will forever be the month my precious little girl left this earth. I wish their was a fast forward button so I would never have to face November again. But their isn’t.
I remember vividly planning Eliza’s memorial service almost one year ago. We sat at a big table at church with our pastor, the worship pastor and a few other people. I remember feeling oddly calm and I had complete clarity on what I wanted to happen on the day we would celebrate Eliza’s short life. I didn’t have to think twice about anything. I knew what I wanted given out, I knew who I wanted the ushers to be, I knew who would speak and what verses, I knew who […]